Beyond My Imagination

" Dating Is always the exciting way of meeting Someone"


But when you're dating someone new , everything seems Foreign, especially if that someone is a "Foreigner"  Cultural Differences, Religions, Beliefs and Traditions and its actually interesting.


You're sharing good laughs,experiences,and matured talks, good food even if its just Burger and Fries and Salads and Beers and Water and smoothies, its not that, you  cant afford to dine in an expensive Fine Dining Restaurants, Its just that you both enjoyed the spontaneity of a good conversation without being too formal that eventually gets you lost to track the  time .


But what if " Dating turns to Liking?" Can you still be spontaneous? Or you will just  try to ignore or press the Red button  because it quite dis alarming? Now it will totally disturb you from being a Hermitess to being a Siren, and if that would be the case the " Liking will turns to Loving"?


And then Suddenly the "Foreigner asked me  what is "LOVE" at that moment the Siren  shut off...I need to pause,break????? or step back? the most an avoidable four letter word that I dont want to hear at this time in my life, and I think the oddest question I heard, I was dumbfounded from a Foreigner's mouth and in  the corner of my mind I was beginning to ask myself "What does really LOVE means? 


Is it "Love" when you mentioned his/her name 100x a day more than you mentioned your name? or is it about you think of his/her convenience more than yourself?, or is it about worrying about his/her needs more than your own? or staring at his/her pictures because you're starting to miss her/him? and you cant keep a hands off from your phone because you're checking the messages and wishing that every time its beeps its from him or her? Bizarre isn't it?


LOVE is something that is depends on a LOVERS point of view to describe.
It's like putting a thrill,an excitement in a whimsical world, a Fairy tale that don't exists in reality, an interpretations of happiness but you felt terrified because you're scared in the grandiose idea of falling in love, and you avoid to be Swept away by the emotions that will try to divert you to fantasies, I am too cynical? yes I admit ! but I am just being me.


Love is... I Love you but I love me more..I will justify myself not to mislead you from what you believed in . I guess the truth is that  You have to love yourself first before you can fully love someone.


Relationships aren't always happy, well  let me asks you then? "How often you felt being happy in your relationships?Because if you do says so always then I guess your relationship is "PERFECT? and you are living in a Fantasy land, but the sad truth there's no Perfect Relationships in the real world, it will just be perfect when you both supports your indifferences and compromise not to change it. Changes sometimes destroy relationships, you are trying to change the person based on the character you are trying to build inside your mind.


There's so many  Real Love Stories I heard, watched ,observed, some can be too good to be a novel or a short stories or a fairy tales to open your eyes that  theres no guarantee that you wont get hurt, some even gave you an idea to always bring a pain killer inside your purse so that youre  ready in case you need them, but that doesn't mean it wasn't filled with LOVE.  


LOVE is not all about Roses and Chocolates, Steaks and Wines, Diamonds and Vows, it is something  you cant even find the best adjective to describe it... its NIRVANA... you dont planned it, you dont mechanically can set it or delay it through a Time machine, it will just happen, and when  you  start hearing the little drumbeat inside your heart,and that nobody can hear but you alone, and its creating a wonderful music in your ears, and when you start to have it dont resists just enjoy it! but make sure you're still connected in the real world.