I was shocked, I felt the numbness and in my disbelief...someone who had been a part of my teenage life passed away.....
I felt that pain and sadness in response of his loss and suddenly had an emotionally shut off from the world, and then memories of him flashes back..late night discos, the movie marathon, the frosties and burgers, the late night phone calls, the " I hate you's and dont want to see anymore" those statements he's getting from me whenever I am upset with him, and the I am sorry after.
We're not been a perfect couple , but I would say we've been perfect friends, well maybe because the truth is that he preferred to have a different sexual orientation from the fact that he is a man with a heart of a woman.
I still remembered how upset I was when I found it out and how shameful it was for him to face me, and that particular day was the last time I saw him.
After Seven years of no news , I received an email from him Saying how sorry he was, and on that day I responded to his mail telling I have forgiven him long time ago, I just dont know how to tell him.
And another Five years had passed since from that exchanging emails, I received an email, but this time not from him but from a friend telling me he just passed away yesterday.
All I can recall now is his smiling face, how loud he laughs,how much he loves burgers and fries,how much he hates the smell of an onion and garlic, how vain he was to wear excessive smell of perfume, and how cute he was whenever he's buying pairs of shoes for me... I dont want to know what happened to him for the years that I got no single news of his whereabouts , his career, of how his family refused to accept his preference to become a member of the third sex.
I just wanted to remember him as "The Guy who loves to shop pairs of shoes for me..."
God Bless your soul "Al" may you rest in Peace.
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