Friday, January 6, 2012

Bitter to feel Better?

I always remember what my father said when he was still alive, when he was so scared that I am reaching my teenage years, and some young boys around are throwing an intention of admiration on me " First love changes your life forever, it could be for the better or could be worst ,so be smart whom you give your heart to" I don't want to see any of my daughters crying and getting hurt by someone or else I will take them back home....those words are so precious that when I hit the right age of maturity,I'm always taking into consideration the affairs of the heart, that I got so conscious and careful not to get hurt.  My father is just being protective, well as all fathers do for their daughters, but he doesn't mean that I should not trust guys at all.   During my growing up years, little by little  that I have fully understood what he meant by those statement, that its OK to fall in love , its a part of growing, you'll get hurt, you'll be happy, you'll get excited,you'll cry, you'll get sad , you'll panic, its a mixed of emotions running through your brain.  You'll meet different personalities which will give you different perceptions about men in general, and that made me concluded that Men are just like  M and M's they came in different colors,but they gave you the same taste, the feeling of sweetness and excitement.  But when you have over eaten of chocolates that's gives you pain ...an indescribable toothache pain that hitting your brain.


Your first Heartbreak? too painful? unforgettable, indescribable but that's where all learning starts, it makes you stronger, braver and bolder.  You will analyze things that makes you realized that Falling in love is not all sweetness, it doesn't guarantee a 100% pain free .


Ironic that it will even make you feel so stupid of being in love to a non deserving guy who wasted your time and effort,and he is going to be the sour topic of every conversation you' 
ll have, Bitter right? 


But if these things will make you feel good its fine, because it doesn't mean that whenever you talked about of what happened  you're being Bitter, its just that you are starting to feel better and better and you are on the process of forgiving and letting go of the past and it won't  stop you of falling in love again, who does'nt want to by the way? because  the lessons you've learned made you a Smart Woman as you are  right now, and what's all my Father wants me to understand is that " forget the pain, leave behind the past , move on and take the lessons....

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